No beach today. Had wonderful plans to hit up the beach. Had a late nap and then jumped in a cab. While driving we asked how much to the beach and he said $50 so we think that is a big NO. Almost sure the other guests said it was around $20 which is reasonable. So today we decided to go eat instead. We never really know what we are ordering so it was quite comical watching Kyle put his scallop dish to him. It was so spicy he was sweating bullets!! haha Had a good chuckle over that.
One thing we keep noticing is people here really know how to dine and dress. You rarely and I mean rarely see someone in scruffy clothes out. We have been the scruffy people. Everyone is dressed right to the nines, even the children. Every restaurant is overflowing with servers who do their best to accommodate. They bring you a purse stand and they'll hook you up with hand sanitizer at the table.
I have yet to see a child misbehave or have a public melt down. Very family oriented. Only wish we could communicate more. I did learn how to say "How are you" that's about it.
Anywho, I really hope everyone back home is safe and sound. Take your time digging out and for the love of god stay the fuck off the roads!!!!
Hugs to my sweet Livi loo and Grader Grade xoxoxo Momma and Daddy miss you terribly but time will fly. (edit: and to anyone complaining about being stuck at home with loved ones....suck it up baby....you're pretty damn lucky if we say so)
FUCK CANCER!
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!!!
HANTS COUNTY STRONG!!
Much Love
xoxo
Sunday, 15 February 2015
Saturday, 14 February 2015
Valentine Day Down (Day 10ish)
Today is down and out. I felt a lot of cancer kicking went on today. Not sure why today but it just felt like it so I'm running with it. Got my temp up to 42.2 in the chamber which apparently is very good. I had some tunes in my ears and just sat back and pictures the cancer cells dying as the temp rose.
We had a different nurse today as Rossy was off, he spoke no english so that was a little tough but thank you google translator and I asked about going to eat. Haha. Eating seems to still be my biggest challenge, I emailed the nutritionist and hoping he gets back at me soon as I have many questions I need answered. I really want to stick with the program and get it all together at the same time.
Speaking of Valentines I came back to the room and my sweet husband had a beautiful bouquet of flowers here for me plus a magic bullet for whipping up some smoothies!!! Yay, happy woman here tonight :)
Kyle and I are going to relax for the rest of the evening, watch some tv and hoping tomorrow we can get to the beach. I'd really like to see some water and something other then the hotel room or clinics 4 walls.
Speaking of i think I have him convinced to change hotels yet again. There is one close that has outside facilities so we can sit outside in the afternoon or evening :) Right dear!!
Rememeber say I love you often and hug lots.
FUCK YOU CANCER!
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!!!
HANTS COUNTY STRONG!
Much Love
xoxo
We had a different nurse today as Rossy was off, he spoke no english so that was a little tough but thank you google translator and I asked about going to eat. Haha. Eating seems to still be my biggest challenge, I emailed the nutritionist and hoping he gets back at me soon as I have many questions I need answered. I really want to stick with the program and get it all together at the same time.
Speaking of Valentines I came back to the room and my sweet husband had a beautiful bouquet of flowers here for me plus a magic bullet for whipping up some smoothies!!! Yay, happy woman here tonight :)
Kyle and I are going to relax for the rest of the evening, watch some tv and hoping tomorrow we can get to the beach. I'd really like to see some water and something other then the hotel room or clinics 4 walls.
Speaking of i think I have him convinced to change hotels yet again. There is one close that has outside facilities so we can sit outside in the afternoon or evening :) Right dear!!
Rememeber say I love you often and hug lots.
FUCK YOU CANCER!
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!!!
HANTS COUNTY STRONG!
Much Love
xoxo
Friday, 13 February 2015
Day 9 To the Moon and Back!
Yet again I'm tired right out tonight, the Doctor said I would feel like this after 3 days of chemo even though it is lose dose. Got back to the room had a chat with the kids and fell asleep. Poor Livi was not having a good night she just wanted momma and daddy, tears you apart that is for sure. It doesn't change my conviction to want to get better just makes me realize how much I miss my sweet babies. How much I miss grabbing a hold of them. How much I miss waking up with my sweet girl in my arms (Grade doesn't do well in our bed yet :) ) Tonight I was a bit low so if you could all hug your babies an extra time for us and maybe say a little prayer for my sweet babies that would be great. Pray to bring light to their hearts and let them know that their momma and daddy love them more then they will ever know.
Going to grab a bite to eat for supper and relax yet again...haha
FUCK YOU CANCER!
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!!!!
HANTS COUNTY STRONG!
Much Love
xoxoxo
Going to grab a bite to eat for supper and relax yet again...haha
FUCK YOU CANCER!
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!!!!
HANTS COUNTY STRONG!
Much Love
xoxoxo
Thursday, 12 February 2015
Day 8 down and out
Day 8 is done, and I'm wiped the fuck out. I say it's because I kicked cancers ass today. Did another day of lose dose chemo (without ipt today) but hit it with the light things x4, the bed, rife, sono and then had a go at the chamber (my second time) point is to get your temp up and that I did. I got up to 41.5 which apparently is good!!! I wanted to stop 20 mins in as it was so hot but at this point what the fuck is 20 more minutes. Betty the nurse turned the fan on and I think she could tell I was getting close to my threshold so she wiped my face and head down with a nice cool cloth. It really helped me get over that hump. (picture a bed with lamps that they zip up the sides and all around your face and crank the heat inside) I dare say I rocked that shit!!!!
With all that cancer fighting I was super tired tonight so came home and slept for a couple hours. I was super nauseous last night so was sent home with more meds tonight to try and curb that.
My dear hubby spent the day making sure our life her is comfortable and did some sight seeing. Glad he is at least able to get out and experience. Hoping I will be able to in a couple weeks. I did ask the doctor if I could start going on the treadmill and maybe lift a few weights but was told a big resounding no! Haha I'll ask again next week.
Trying to push missing our babies out of my head and not let that sadness in, it's really great to be able to talk to them but sometimes make me miss them that much more that we cannot wrap our friggin arms around them. Soon enough sweet babie, soon enough xoxoxoxox
There are a few different rooms but there really is just two main rooms where our treatments are done, ours got a little crazy this afternoon and convo's got a little silly. It was great :)
Today CANCER YOU CAN GO FUCK YOURSELF!!!
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!!!!
(Gonna change it up a bit today) MEXICO STRONG!!!
Much Love
xoxo
With all that cancer fighting I was super tired tonight so came home and slept for a couple hours. I was super nauseous last night so was sent home with more meds tonight to try and curb that.
My dear hubby spent the day making sure our life her is comfortable and did some sight seeing. Glad he is at least able to get out and experience. Hoping I will be able to in a couple weeks. I did ask the doctor if I could start going on the treadmill and maybe lift a few weights but was told a big resounding no! Haha I'll ask again next week.
Trying to push missing our babies out of my head and not let that sadness in, it's really great to be able to talk to them but sometimes make me miss them that much more that we cannot wrap our friggin arms around them. Soon enough sweet babie, soon enough xoxoxoxox
There are a few different rooms but there really is just two main rooms where our treatments are done, ours got a little crazy this afternoon and convo's got a little silly. It was great :)
Today CANCER YOU CAN GO FUCK YOURSELF!!!
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!!!!
(Gonna change it up a bit today) MEXICO STRONG!!!
Much Love
xoxo
Wednesday, 11 February 2015
Day 7
Good evening my loves. Tonight is another tired night. Last night was a restless sleep as I was a bit unconfortable with pain from the line and today was along ass day. I had my first treatment of lose does chemo today in conjuction with the ipt (so insulin and then hit it with glucose) When I'm getting the treatments I just keep picturing the cancer shrinking and going away....shrinking and running scared bitches :)
Food is coming around, kyle has figured out the local grocery store and picks up some veggies and fruit for us to snack on plus getting our meals at the clinic during the day. It is a huge learning curve that will take some time i'm sure.
I would like to start getting out more after clinic but I've been so tired I just like to come back and have a nap. I do however think it's necessary to keep doing things so will have a chat with the doc and see what he thinks.
oh and last night I was notified I had been nominated by council as the Provincial Representative Volunteer for the Mnicipality of West Hants. How cool is that!!!! I was very shocked but think it's pretty cool :)
Anywho, going to grab some supper and do what we do folks.
FUCK CANCER!!!
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!!
Much Love
xoxoxo
Food is coming around, kyle has figured out the local grocery store and picks up some veggies and fruit for us to snack on plus getting our meals at the clinic during the day. It is a huge learning curve that will take some time i'm sure.
I would like to start getting out more after clinic but I've been so tired I just like to come back and have a nap. I do however think it's necessary to keep doing things so will have a chat with the doc and see what he thinks.
oh and last night I was notified I had been nominated by council as the Provincial Representative Volunteer for the Mnicipality of West Hants. How cool is that!!!! I was very shocked but think it's pretty cool :)
Anywho, going to grab some supper and do what we do folks.
FUCK CANCER!!!
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!!
Much Love
xoxoxo
Tuesday, 10 February 2015
Day 6
What I found out today
Me and sedatives are still not friends. I was high in Mexico, and not the i'm 20 partying it up in Tijuana kind, but the I got a main line put in my clavicle and I was all hoped up for most of the day. Haha
So what I''m saying is I'm tuckered right out tonight and going for a snooze and supper.
See you tomorrow my loves xoxoxo
FUCK YOU CANCER
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!!!
HANTS COUNTY STRONG
Much Love
xo
Monday, 9 February 2015
Day 5
Good Evening ya'll
Day 5 is over and done, finished up early today so was nice to come back to the room and have a nap. I didn't end up with the clavicle line today as was told tomorrow am. Hopefully as my dear arms are not liking the ivs at all. I swear I'm like a delicate flower.
Learning more each day and finding new ways to fight this fucking cancer. Luckily there's a couple gals (patients) at the clinic that have been sending a few pointers my way to help me get the most out of my treatments. Even though this is the route we've chosen it's still very strange to not be receiving conventional medical treatment.
I was talking to someone special tonight and she sounded a bit low, she said it's been weird as we all spent so much time together since diagnosis (even before) and now that we're gone it's strange. I hope you all realize that even though our body is here our souls are at home with you all, so when you're feeling a bit low just have a think about a crazy moment we've shared, smile at the good times and just think I'll be back better then ever......and hopefully with a little bit of Spanish in my lingo. I'll most likely drive you all bat shit crazy with some random catch phrase I picked up.
Oh and if you could all give my sweeties a little hug and kiss from us when you see them that would be great.
Kyle cooked our first meal in the room. Stir fry with cukes and pineapple on the side :) Yummy (and way fucking cheaper)
FUCK YOU CANCER
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT
HANTS COUNTY STRONG!!!
Sleep easy my loves
xoxoxoxo
Day 5 is over and done, finished up early today so was nice to come back to the room and have a nap. I didn't end up with the clavicle line today as was told tomorrow am. Hopefully as my dear arms are not liking the ivs at all. I swear I'm like a delicate flower.
Learning more each day and finding new ways to fight this fucking cancer. Luckily there's a couple gals (patients) at the clinic that have been sending a few pointers my way to help me get the most out of my treatments. Even though this is the route we've chosen it's still very strange to not be receiving conventional medical treatment.
I was talking to someone special tonight and she sounded a bit low, she said it's been weird as we all spent so much time together since diagnosis (even before) and now that we're gone it's strange. I hope you all realize that even though our body is here our souls are at home with you all, so when you're feeling a bit low just have a think about a crazy moment we've shared, smile at the good times and just think I'll be back better then ever......and hopefully with a little bit of Spanish in my lingo. I'll most likely drive you all bat shit crazy with some random catch phrase I picked up.
Oh and if you could all give my sweeties a little hug and kiss from us when you see them that would be great.
Kyle cooked our first meal in the room. Stir fry with cukes and pineapple on the side :) Yummy (and way fucking cheaper)
FUCK YOU CANCER
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT
HANTS COUNTY STRONG!!!
Sleep easy my loves
xoxoxoxo
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