Best sleep yet. Fell asleep at 10:30 and didn't stir until 8am. It was delightful!!!! I wasn't even at all the events this weekend and I'm tuckered :)
Finally got up around 10ish and had some breaky, then out and about with the gals. Went to a crazy ass market thingy ( a little nerve wrecking ) then to lunch and costco and the mall We crazy. Best quote of the day goes to the guy at the restaurant.....after a nice little chat and friendly banter...we said we couldn't drink alchol so he said "double water for everyone" Might be a you had to be there moment.
Anywho, back at er tomorrow.
Good night sweet people
FUCK CANCER
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!!
Much Love
xoxox
Sunday, 22 February 2015
Saturday, 21 February 2015
Day One-Seven :)
You people are fucking crazy.....in good crazy way. I am speechless at what you all have accomplished. Truly truly blessed we are.
WARNING: I may be emotional(ish) today so if you do not want to cry maybe don't go forward.
From the time we woke up I was hyped, hyped from looking at all the pics of the fundraiser in Calgary, hypes thinking about the day ahead and the event happening at home. All the while I'm hyped, I was a little sad. Sad we were not there, sad we could not see everyone, hug everyone. Enjoy everyone. Being here by ourselves sucks ass, we put a smile on our faces because that is what we do. We laugh at silly shit, because that is what we do. We creep facebook all the fucking time because we miss home so fucking much that any glimpse of you all makes us smile. So although today was awesome being able to watch everyone coming together it still sucked ass that we were not there.
I pushed all the sad shit out and looked at what was really going on. From every picture we looked at over the last 24 hours, we saw people working together for one common goal. Helping others out.
I felt the vibe peeps, felt it all. You brought me back around today, like you have so many times in the last 2 months.
I cannot even begin to explain how much we appreciate it all (I know I say this all the time) but we do. Love to you all sweet folks. Love can heal and this girl is healing now, I can feel myself getting stronger each day and can't wait to get home healthy and strong. Cannot wait to wrap my arms around my babies, friends and family. Fuck I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH!!!
Here's another visualization for you all. When in treatment I always picture the cancer cells dying and while talking to one doctor about it he mentioned the white blood cells were packmaning the cancer cells...what the fuck did you just say Dr A.....love it......so now not only do I get to kill cancer cells I can play a game while doing it......PACKMAN baby!
Oh and I also had a goal of increasing my temp today, a little friendly competition with yourself never hurt anything right. I was 42.5 last time (I think) so my goal today was 42.8 To achieve this I thought I would try the chamber without the fan on my face....well it worked....up to 43.1 woot woot
Anywho, off to bed I go.
FUCK YOU CANCER (you do not stand a chance against my army)
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!!!
HANTS COUNTY STRONG!!
Much Love
xoxoxo
Friday, 20 February 2015
16......
Nice day today. I went in with so much energy, I'm pretty sure I scared my nurse Rossy :) I am usually the last one leaving the clinic but mentioned to Rossy it would be nice to get out a little easly today as it was Kyles birthday and we wanted to go to the mall. I was finished a little after 1pm, it was great. We went to the mall and found some "non scruffy" shoes for me to wear out for supper, a healthy ice cream place (franchise idea???) and a cake place. We ended up getting a piece for Kyle and bought one to take back to the nurses at the clinic :) I think they were pretty happy :) Feels nice to pay it forward a bit.
We then were able to relax a bit in the room before heading out for supper for Kyle's Birthday with a few gals fom the clinic. Not being able to talk with the kiddos sucked the big one as I doubt they'll have time to chat with us tomorrow. So if someone is reading this and is with our children tomorrow please send a message so we can chat xoxoxo
Supper was really nice and "normal" being out with others. Good(ish) food, great company and nice time out.
Thinking of everyone in Calgary tonight, the planners, the volunteers and everyone who came out to support us. Looking at pictures and wishing we were there as well. I still think it's strange to want to be at s fundraiser for you. Oh well, strange it is.
Looking forward to tomorrows events as well, but oh so wishing we were home to participate. We are oh so blessed to have all these wonderful people in our lives who have been tirelessly working. Jeeze I only wish I had others words to really portray how we feel.
Anyway, going to go to bed as tired this evening.
Happy Birthday to my beyond amazing husband, I'll get you a gift when we get home. Kinda difficult to do when he won't let me be by myself outside of the clinic. Anywho, we'll celebrate again later on xoxoxox
FUCK CANCER
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!!!!
CANADA STRONG BABAY!!!!!
Much Love
xoxoxo
We then were able to relax a bit in the room before heading out for supper for Kyle's Birthday with a few gals fom the clinic. Not being able to talk with the kiddos sucked the big one as I doubt they'll have time to chat with us tomorrow. So if someone is reading this and is with our children tomorrow please send a message so we can chat xoxoxo
Supper was really nice and "normal" being out with others. Good(ish) food, great company and nice time out.
Thinking of everyone in Calgary tonight, the planners, the volunteers and everyone who came out to support us. Looking at pictures and wishing we were there as well. I still think it's strange to want to be at s fundraiser for you. Oh well, strange it is.
Looking forward to tomorrows events as well, but oh so wishing we were home to participate. We are oh so blessed to have all these wonderful people in our lives who have been tirelessly working. Jeeze I only wish I had others words to really portray how we feel.
Anyway, going to go to bed as tired this evening.
Happy Birthday to my beyond amazing husband, I'll get you a gift when we get home. Kinda difficult to do when he won't let me be by myself outside of the clinic. Anywho, we'll celebrate again later on xoxoxox
FUCK CANCER
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!!!!
CANADA STRONG BABAY!!!!!
Much Love
xoxoxo
Thursday, 19 February 2015
Day 15
I wasn't going to wirte tonight. To tired from being outside by the pool and enjoying the complimentary private lounge :) That's right, I just bragged, it was a nice evening, nice to feel "normal" every now and then (well as normal as I'll ever get)
Anywho, back to the not writing tonight. I wasn't going to but then thought about the people who say they look forward to our nightly updates and such. So I sat back up (out of my oh so comfy bed) and started writing.
Today was an interesting day, got my temp up to 42.5 in the chamber. Betty the nurse just smiled and said wow....as that's a pretty good temp. I was yet again the last one to leave clinic....no idea why i'm always so slow. Met with Oscar the nurtritionist today. Was really great to get clarification on a few points. Moving forward it will be tough but this strict part is only for three months. We then reevaluate and go from there. He also said not to freak out about not having the high quality food items here just to do my best and make the best choices possible while here. Then while talking with Dr Bautista he told me to relax a bit on the food and just make sure I don't lose anymore weight. I just prefer to do all that I can and feel food is one of the biggies. I am going to relax on it a little bit and make sure I'm full.
Scary part of the day was one of the patients daughters was assaulted while they tried to rob her. Very very very scary stuff. She's a great girl and very worldly for her age. She fought back and the fuckers only ended up getting her phone. She made her way back to the clinic and still in shock was able to give details about the assholes. The cops were called and were super quick to respond. The showed up with lots of cars and ended up taking the girls with them to try and identify the boys. They were found and arrested. I think the boys are lucky in this instance that the cops found them before her momma did. So very glad you are alright at home with your momma tonight B xoxo
Tomorrow is a fundraiser in Calgary and Saturday night is the one at home. So terribly sad to be missing these events. Please take lots of pics for us xoxoxo
Tonight, FUCK THE LITTLE ASSHOLES WHO TRIED TO TAKE HER OUT AND FAILED!!!
FUCK CANCER
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!!!
HANTS COUNTY STRONG
Much Love
xoxo
Anywho, back to the not writing tonight. I wasn't going to but then thought about the people who say they look forward to our nightly updates and such. So I sat back up (out of my oh so comfy bed) and started writing.
Today was an interesting day, got my temp up to 42.5 in the chamber. Betty the nurse just smiled and said wow....as that's a pretty good temp. I was yet again the last one to leave clinic....no idea why i'm always so slow. Met with Oscar the nurtritionist today. Was really great to get clarification on a few points. Moving forward it will be tough but this strict part is only for three months. We then reevaluate and go from there. He also said not to freak out about not having the high quality food items here just to do my best and make the best choices possible while here. Then while talking with Dr Bautista he told me to relax a bit on the food and just make sure I don't lose anymore weight. I just prefer to do all that I can and feel food is one of the biggies. I am going to relax on it a little bit and make sure I'm full.
Scary part of the day was one of the patients daughters was assaulted while they tried to rob her. Very very very scary stuff. She's a great girl and very worldly for her age. She fought back and the fuckers only ended up getting her phone. She made her way back to the clinic and still in shock was able to give details about the assholes. The cops were called and were super quick to respond. The showed up with lots of cars and ended up taking the girls with them to try and identify the boys. They were found and arrested. I think the boys are lucky in this instance that the cops found them before her momma did. So very glad you are alright at home with your momma tonight B xoxo
Tomorrow is a fundraiser in Calgary and Saturday night is the one at home. So terribly sad to be missing these events. Please take lots of pics for us xoxoxo
Tonight, FUCK THE LITTLE ASSHOLES WHO TRIED TO TAKE HER OUT AND FAILED!!!
FUCK CANCER
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!!!
HANTS COUNTY STRONG
Much Love
xoxo
Wednesday, 18 February 2015
Day 14
New patient at the clinic today. I didn't meet her but I did hear her. A little 4yr old girl. I only wish I could take away the pain from her for one day. Life can be so unfair. It's horrible going through this as an adult but it's such an injustice for sweet little children to have to deal with this.
We were going to hold off switching hotels as we didn't want to spend the extra money. So we decided to take a scoot down and check out the hotel, well after taking a look we went for it....and upgraded at that. Oops. We re going to pretend we're on vacation for a week before we move in to the apartment. Can't wait to show pics, it's a beautiful hotel with a gorgeous pool and such.
Not much else tonight sweet friends.
FUCK CANCER!
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!
HANTS COUNTY STRONG!
Much Love
xoxo
We were going to hold off switching hotels as we didn't want to spend the extra money. So we decided to take a scoot down and check out the hotel, well after taking a look we went for it....and upgraded at that. Oops. We re going to pretend we're on vacation for a week before we move in to the apartment. Can't wait to show pics, it's a beautiful hotel with a gorgeous pool and such.
Not much else tonight sweet friends.
FUCK CANCER!
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!
HANTS COUNTY STRONG!
Much Love
xoxo
Tuesday, 17 February 2015
Day 13
I'm not napping after treatment.....sur-fucking-prise!! This may be two days in a row without napping. I dare say I have a little bit of energy.
Today was a tough day of missing the kids. Every fucking thing I looked at reminded me of them. Oh look a chair.....I like to cuddle in chairs with the kids.....oh look a door....remember that time I slammed the door on poor grades fingers (okay not a special memory but a memory none the less).....oh look it's sunny out....jeeze we have fun outside playing in the sun!!
Breath In
Breath Out
Breath In
Breath Out
Life, Love, Laugh, FIGHT
Repeat!
Otherwise today was a good day. Had a real good chuckle over one patient trying to explain 50 Shades of Grey to another patient asking if she wanted to go with us to see it. By far the best chuckle of the day.
Ate 3 good meals so far which seems to be helping with my stomach and feeling hungry. There is a place down the road where you can get a bunch of different foods made fresh....yummy chicken curry :)
Anywho, sweet folks, we're going to watch some Walking Dead and relax until our next meal..haha
FUCK CANCER
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!!
HANTS COUNTY STRONG (I hope you're all dug out, or close to being dug out)
Much Love
xoxo
Today was a tough day of missing the kids. Every fucking thing I looked at reminded me of them. Oh look a chair.....I like to cuddle in chairs with the kids.....oh look a door....remember that time I slammed the door on poor grades fingers (okay not a special memory but a memory none the less).....oh look it's sunny out....jeeze we have fun outside playing in the sun!!
Breath In
Breath Out
Breath In
Breath Out
Life, Love, Laugh, FIGHT
Repeat!
Otherwise today was a good day. Had a real good chuckle over one patient trying to explain 50 Shades of Grey to another patient asking if she wanted to go with us to see it. By far the best chuckle of the day.
Ate 3 good meals so far which seems to be helping with my stomach and feeling hungry. There is a place down the road where you can get a bunch of different foods made fresh....yummy chicken curry :)
Anywho, sweet folks, we're going to watch some Walking Dead and relax until our next meal..haha
FUCK CANCER
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!!
HANTS COUNTY STRONG (I hope you're all dug out, or close to being dug out)
Much Love
xoxo
Monday, 16 February 2015
Day Something or other
I am happy tonight. I didn't need a nap tonight and my doctor seemed overly happy talking to me today. He's been very friendly up to this point but every time I talked to him he talked about how serious my disease is (duh, I get that) Maybe I need to cry more and show I'm scared...nah....fuck that. I cried enough to last a lifetime.
When I left his office today I felt good. Today I mostly had questions about the different machines I use and making sure I'm using them properly to achieve the maximum benefit to me. Making sure if in his opinion I was holding up my end of the bargain....and I am :)
We left clinic a little late today and took a trip to Costco and ended up missing talking to the kids which really sucks, have to make sure we watch the clock better. I get so lost with time here that I blink and it's 4pm. I spent most of morning looking at pic of the kids in between treatments. I just have to keep thinking....they are the reason we're doing this....(and for myself obviosuly)....they are why we want to be healthy....they are the reason I WILL KICK THIS SHIT!!!!
Give my babies extra kisses and hugs from us in the morning please xoxoxox
Still struggling with food, but after the costco trip we found some things to make smoothies in the room so hoping that helps keep me full. The battle is I'm always fucking hungry....the tumour is so big I can only eat small meals but my body is craving food, it's not a nice feeling always being hungry then only being able to eat 1/4 of a meal. As this thing shrinks I should be able to eat more. Yay Fucking Ya!!
I've said it before but feel it necessary to say to you all a big THANK YOU, I truly still do not feel you know just how blessed we have felt since everything went down. There has not been one moment where I've felt "alone" in this. So many people have come together in so many different ways to show support and Love. It's been amazing and not gone unnoticed, believe me, we see and hear about it all and only wish we knew what more to do then say Thank you, but in my way I"m going to say "FUCK YEA!!!! THANK YOU FUCKERS!!! :)"
FUCK YOU CANCER!
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!!!
HANTS COUNTY STRONG (Even while snowed in)
Much Love
xoxo
When I left his office today I felt good. Today I mostly had questions about the different machines I use and making sure I'm using them properly to achieve the maximum benefit to me. Making sure if in his opinion I was holding up my end of the bargain....and I am :)
We left clinic a little late today and took a trip to Costco and ended up missing talking to the kids which really sucks, have to make sure we watch the clock better. I get so lost with time here that I blink and it's 4pm. I spent most of morning looking at pic of the kids in between treatments. I just have to keep thinking....they are the reason we're doing this....(and for myself obviosuly)....they are why we want to be healthy....they are the reason I WILL KICK THIS SHIT!!!!
Give my babies extra kisses and hugs from us in the morning please xoxoxox
Still struggling with food, but after the costco trip we found some things to make smoothies in the room so hoping that helps keep me full. The battle is I'm always fucking hungry....the tumour is so big I can only eat small meals but my body is craving food, it's not a nice feeling always being hungry then only being able to eat 1/4 of a meal. As this thing shrinks I should be able to eat more. Yay Fucking Ya!!
I've said it before but feel it necessary to say to you all a big THANK YOU, I truly still do not feel you know just how blessed we have felt since everything went down. There has not been one moment where I've felt "alone" in this. So many people have come together in so many different ways to show support and Love. It's been amazing and not gone unnoticed, believe me, we see and hear about it all and only wish we knew what more to do then say Thank you, but in my way I"m going to say "FUCK YEA!!!! THANK YOU FUCKERS!!! :)"
FUCK YOU CANCER!
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!!!
HANTS COUNTY STRONG (Even while snowed in)
Much Love
xoxo
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