Another nice relaxing day at clinic, thank you lord!! I didn't have a headache starting out the day (I did however take a pain shot around 5am....little preventative med today) and the lack of nasty headache definitley made for a much better day. Our room is pretty full but everyone in there seems to respect the fact that we are all having treatments and we will all be taken care of and have our time.
Kyle and I took a quick walk to the mall, home for supper, a little veg then out for another little walk. It's so stinking boring sitting around and I'm trying to get as much walking in without going overboard. Now we are patiently waiting for J the driver from the clininc to come get us so we can go get momma!!! yay
Also found a place we can stop and I can grab a burger, yes a burger as they have a bun option with lettuce...ummm Fuck YES!!!! Anywho who knows me know I love hamburgers!!!! So the fact that I can have this with a little cheat (mayo) is friggin awesome!!!!!!! They do say they use real ground beef that is antibiotic....and all that stuff free, even though I question that, tonight I don't :)
EDIT/UPDATE:The hamburger was NOT worth it mostly (i'm sure) because I was still expecting a fast food type taste and well that's not what happened. K & J did however have the typical hamburger and chilli cheese fries and although I wanted them for a split second I actually felt better knowing I didn't eat them in the end. I can only imagine how the nastyiness would have made me feel.
Andddddd that hamburger will be picked up on the way to get my momma!!!!!!!
I'll post on Fb when we have her so you all know.
FUCK CANCER
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!!!
HANTS COUNTY STRONG
Much Love
xoxo
Friday, 17 April 2015
Thursday, 16 April 2015
Day 70
What a CALM, QUIET day in our treatment room today. It was delightfully delightful. Only thing that sucked for me was an insane headache but because it was quiet I was able to go inside my own head for a bit and relax.
I was very disappointment when Dr. Bautista said he wants to wait until next week to start my chemo again. I know he's not doing it intentionally and he only wants me in the best possible form to hit it but at this point I just want to get going. I have 2 weeks left so let's rock the shit out of this. In the end I trusted to this point so I'll listen on this obviously. I will be getting iron the next few days to get my counts up and they will be checking just to make sure all is well this weekend.
On the plus side momma flies in again tomorrow night for a week!!!! Yay!!!!
You know, I still get messages from people daily, I have to say I'm a little surprised as I figured it would have slowed down by now but it seems to pick up speed during certain times. It's pretty cool to hear what everyone has to say and I do read each and every one. I may not always respond in a timely manner but I do try my best. I also read each and every comment on this blog. I stopped responding here as some were posting and some were not but again I do see and read each and every comment.
The anticipation is building here as the count down is on. It's extremely nerve wrecking thinking about it but we both cannot wait to get on NS SOIL!!!!!!!! GAH!!!!!!
Kyle found a recipe for brownies that I can eat!!!!! Let's give er a go!!!
Anywho, trying for this early to bedtime thing again so off I go.
FUCK CANCER!
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM Of MY FOOT!
HANTS COUNTY STRONG
Much Love
xoxo
I was very disappointment when Dr. Bautista said he wants to wait until next week to start my chemo again. I know he's not doing it intentionally and he only wants me in the best possible form to hit it but at this point I just want to get going. I have 2 weeks left so let's rock the shit out of this. In the end I trusted to this point so I'll listen on this obviously. I will be getting iron the next few days to get my counts up and they will be checking just to make sure all is well this weekend.
On the plus side momma flies in again tomorrow night for a week!!!! Yay!!!!
You know, I still get messages from people daily, I have to say I'm a little surprised as I figured it would have slowed down by now but it seems to pick up speed during certain times. It's pretty cool to hear what everyone has to say and I do read each and every one. I may not always respond in a timely manner but I do try my best. I also read each and every comment on this blog. I stopped responding here as some were posting and some were not but again I do see and read each and every comment.
The anticipation is building here as the count down is on. It's extremely nerve wrecking thinking about it but we both cannot wait to get on NS SOIL!!!!!!!! GAH!!!!!!
Kyle found a recipe for brownies that I can eat!!!!! Let's give er a go!!!
Anywho, trying for this early to bedtime thing again so off I go.
FUCK CANCER!
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM Of MY FOOT!
HANTS COUNTY STRONG
Much Love
xoxo
Wednesday, 15 April 2015
Day 69
I went in the Chamber!!!!! Woot woot. I was only in for 30 mins but I was in there none the less and I reached HI temp which is great. It felt nice to be back in there and battle against my mind a little bit more.
After clinic we took a scoot out to Playas d'Tijuana to hang out with B,N and L from the clinic. We ended up at Titos for tacos and then had a nice little walk back to their apartment. Nice to act "normal" for a few minutes of the day that's for sure.
Was really great getting home to internet and seeing the videos mom posted of her receiving the volunteers awards on my behalf.. So very humbling and actually made me quite emotional. Thank you ya'll, especially JD for the nomination.
Again, trying this early to bed thing so off I go.
Sweet Dreams ya'll
FUCK CANCER
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!
Much Love
xoxo
After clinic we took a scoot out to Playas d'Tijuana to hang out with B,N and L from the clinic. We ended up at Titos for tacos and then had a nice little walk back to their apartment. Nice to act "normal" for a few minutes of the day that's for sure.
Was really great getting home to internet and seeing the videos mom posted of her receiving the volunteers awards on my behalf.. So very humbling and actually made me quite emotional. Thank you ya'll, especially JD for the nomination.
Again, trying this early to bed thing so off I go.
Sweet Dreams ya'll
FUCK CANCER
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!
Much Love
xoxo
Tuesday, 14 April 2015
Day 68 STILL NO CHAMBER
Good day all in all yet again. I danced and sang around today, I took two steps at a time (3x's) had some good belly laughs, had a great walk a few good talks and am smiling at the end of the day. That my friends is a good day!!!
buttttttt..........still no chamber. My blood is up and I was given the okay so tomorrow I'll be in there even if it means crawling in on top of someone to accommodate it. haha I need the battle right now, I need to be able to go in there knowing damn well I want out and then NOT GET OUT!!!!
FYI, Tomorrow's blog may have a TMI section :)
One thing I will never get use to is City Living!!! I've tried, I've put in a valiant attempt but my goodness, there is no quiet!!!!!! EVER!!!!!!!!! and BUILDINGS every where!!!!!!! gah!!!!!!
I've tried every inch of this apartment and there is no such thing as a quiet area. I just do not think it's possible in a city. I do however have ear plugs so tonight me thinks those will have to do :)
I'm off to prepare my sneak attack on the chamber so good night sweet folks. Have a great sleep and see you all in the am.
FUCK CANCER!
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!
Much Love
xoxo
buttttttt..........still no chamber. My blood is up and I was given the okay so tomorrow I'll be in there even if it means crawling in on top of someone to accommodate it. haha I need the battle right now, I need to be able to go in there knowing damn well I want out and then NOT GET OUT!!!!
FYI, Tomorrow's blog may have a TMI section :)
One thing I will never get use to is City Living!!! I've tried, I've put in a valiant attempt but my goodness, there is no quiet!!!!!! EVER!!!!!!!!! and BUILDINGS every where!!!!!!! gah!!!!!!
I've tried every inch of this apartment and there is no such thing as a quiet area. I just do not think it's possible in a city. I do however have ear plugs so tonight me thinks those will have to do :)
I'm off to prepare my sneak attack on the chamber so good night sweet folks. Have a great sleep and see you all in the am.
FUCK CANCER!
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!
Much Love
xoxo
Monday, 13 April 2015
Day 67
Days are up and down but I can finally say I had A GREAT DAY!!!! Nothing in particular, nothing stands out as the defining spotlight, but at this moment, sitting on my little couch, in my little apartment in Tijuana I feel like I had a good day!!!! I felt like some cancer fighting went on and physically I feel really good right now.
One thing I do have to do is clear my conscience. I know what your response will be but I'm going to say it anyway. I am done saying sorry for my community (family,friends,acquaintances, all of you who have been so strongly supporting us through this all)!! WHAT THE FUCK DID I JUST SAY AND WHAT THE FUCK DO I MEAN?
When I talk about home and I'm chatting with someone who doesn't necessarily have the "community" support I do, I say sorry.....then continue along with my awesome community story. I feel the need to apologize for just how stinking amazing all of you are and for that I truly am sorry. Isn't that absurb.
Well dear folks, I am no longer going to say sorry for just how amazing you all are, when I talk about home theres no way for my heart to not open up and just spill happiness all over the place and I'm going to celebrate that more and quit the SORRY!!!
Well, now that you think I'm all off my rocker this chick is off to bed.
FUCK CANCER
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!
HANTS COUNTY STRONG
Much Love
xoxo
One thing I do have to do is clear my conscience. I know what your response will be but I'm going to say it anyway. I am done saying sorry for my community (family,friends,acquaintances, all of you who have been so strongly supporting us through this all)!! WHAT THE FUCK DID I JUST SAY AND WHAT THE FUCK DO I MEAN?
When I talk about home and I'm chatting with someone who doesn't necessarily have the "community" support I do, I say sorry.....then continue along with my awesome community story. I feel the need to apologize for just how stinking amazing all of you are and for that I truly am sorry. Isn't that absurb.
Well dear folks, I am no longer going to say sorry for just how amazing you all are, when I talk about home theres no way for my heart to not open up and just spill happiness all over the place and I'm going to celebrate that more and quit the SORRY!!!
Well, now that you think I'm all off my rocker this chick is off to bed.
FUCK CANCER
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!
HANTS COUNTY STRONG
Much Love
xoxo
Sunday, 12 April 2015
Day 66 written on time :)
Lazy sunday day and not much to report so I think I'll sign off early have a shower, lay in bed and relax for the evening.
Good night sweet folks!
FUCK CANCER!
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!
Much Love
xoxo
Day 65 (Written Early Sunday am)
Good morning ya'll. Yesterday was a strange strange day and just didn't get on to write last night.
Had a very slow relaxing day in clinic. My Rosy was off and in her place was Roger. A young newish nurse who so desperately wants to make sure he does everything right he tends to be a little slower. I don't mind at all as he is super diligent and takes his time to make sure it's just perfect. Unfortunately had some eating issues yesterday, there really was nothing prepared through the clinic that I could eat so that made for a bit of a longer day, I still need to make sure I get lots of meals in during the day. Kyle ran to the apartment and brought some snacks back which helped get through the day.
Before starting my clinic day I was able to stay in touch with Mom and the other dance moms via a fb thread and be involved with Liv's first dance competition. Thank you ladies for keeping us up to date and involved, it made a not so pleasant "missing" home wayyyyyyy easier. I also have to admit that I ate a little crow while watching. I initially didn't want Liv in the Comp dance but am oh so glad she pushed for it. The light in her eyes was just awesome to see!!!
On to the evening and the Dinner theatre, wowowowowowowow, just WOW!!!! I still find it hard to wrap my head around all that our community is doing for us. You guys are just amazing and we can't thank you all enough for everything! So this is me opening up my arms (and they're long) wrapping you all in a big ole hug....then dropping some big ole kisses on your cheeks, and then when you think the hug is done.....it's not really.....I keep snuggling....haha! That was nice eh :)
Oh and this totally happened......http://eleanorbeaton.com/blog/post/lisa-wood.....yup...I'm a fierce woman. Was so honoured to have initially been asked and even more so now after seeing this on Eleanors's blog. I've been a fan of hers for a while so was floored when approached and a little intimidated to tell the truth. In the end I answered like I write on here and I think you get the just of me. Thank you so very much for the opportunity to get my word out on such a great platform Eleanor!!!
A special group of others have been on my mind since late yesterday, you know who you are and I love you to bits. I desperately wish I was home for that hug and kiss but know all will be well in the end....xoxoxoxoxoxoxox.....love you!!!
Time is ticking on home time and I couldn't be more excited. Still so very stressed about food as it literally controls every part of my life. My goal over the next week is to really start focusing on the positive of food. Not what I can't but what I can and go from there. Unfortunately for everyone else I can't see me stopping bitching about the bad stuff....it's how it's going to be....I know...annoying but at this point it's what I know will happen and it's what I need. I'm a talker and voicing it is what I know.
Anywho, just waiting on my food (yup 4:30 am in Tj and I ordered chicken broth)
There is some intense police drama outside the hotel so sleep will ellude me once again me think :)
FUCK CANCER
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT
HANTS COUNTY STRONG
Much Love
xoxo
Clinic ready baby!!!
Had a very slow relaxing day in clinic. My Rosy was off and in her place was Roger. A young newish nurse who so desperately wants to make sure he does everything right he tends to be a little slower. I don't mind at all as he is super diligent and takes his time to make sure it's just perfect. Unfortunately had some eating issues yesterday, there really was nothing prepared through the clinic that I could eat so that made for a bit of a longer day, I still need to make sure I get lots of meals in during the day. Kyle ran to the apartment and brought some snacks back which helped get through the day.
Before starting my clinic day I was able to stay in touch with Mom and the other dance moms via a fb thread and be involved with Liv's first dance competition. Thank you ladies for keeping us up to date and involved, it made a not so pleasant "missing" home wayyyyyyy easier. I also have to admit that I ate a little crow while watching. I initially didn't want Liv in the Comp dance but am oh so glad she pushed for it. The light in her eyes was just awesome to see!!!
On to the evening and the Dinner theatre, wowowowowowowow, just WOW!!!! I still find it hard to wrap my head around all that our community is doing for us. You guys are just amazing and we can't thank you all enough for everything! So this is me opening up my arms (and they're long) wrapping you all in a big ole hug....then dropping some big ole kisses on your cheeks, and then when you think the hug is done.....it's not really.....I keep snuggling....haha! That was nice eh :)
Oh and this totally happened......http://eleanorbeaton.com/blog/post/lisa-wood.....yup...I'm a fierce woman. Was so honoured to have initially been asked and even more so now after seeing this on Eleanors's blog. I've been a fan of hers for a while so was floored when approached and a little intimidated to tell the truth. In the end I answered like I write on here and I think you get the just of me. Thank you so very much for the opportunity to get my word out on such a great platform Eleanor!!!
A special group of others have been on my mind since late yesterday, you know who you are and I love you to bits. I desperately wish I was home for that hug and kiss but know all will be well in the end....xoxoxoxoxoxoxox.....love you!!!
Time is ticking on home time and I couldn't be more excited. Still so very stressed about food as it literally controls every part of my life. My goal over the next week is to really start focusing on the positive of food. Not what I can't but what I can and go from there. Unfortunately for everyone else I can't see me stopping bitching about the bad stuff....it's how it's going to be....I know...annoying but at this point it's what I know will happen and it's what I need. I'm a talker and voicing it is what I know.
Anywho, just waiting on my food (yup 4:30 am in Tj and I ordered chicken broth)
There is some intense police drama outside the hotel so sleep will ellude me once again me think :)
FUCK CANCER
I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT
HANTS COUNTY STRONG
Much Love
xoxo
Clinic ready baby!!!
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